Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect. (Rom 12:2)
Sometimes the Lord gives you a weighty lesson in humility.
My peace was somewhat disturbed recently because of my own fault and lack of diligence. And there followed a moment when I realized that I had not stood up for Jesus in some way, and it had happened three times in a row.
It was if I had heard the cock crow.
So when I found myself again on a Sunday in a different Catholic Church, in a different town, I also found myself without the courage to wear the veil. Not only that, but the Lord let me know in His gentle, tender way that when I let things like that happen, graces may be lost…perhaps for me, perhaps for the very ones that I prayed and hoped for that day. Doing something for Jesus to honor Him, and make Him better known and loved, in other words acknowledging Him as God and pointing others toward Him, is a powerful way to release His grace to ourselves and others, so even miracles can happen. Because of my lack of diligence, I lost courage, didn’t speak for Jesus, and then squandered an opportunity for grace.
Talk about feeling contrite.
This firm resolution to become a saint is extremely pleasing to Me. I bless your efforts and will give you opportunities to sanctify yourself. Be watchful that you lose no opportunity that My providence offers you for sanctification. If you do not succeed in taking advantage of an opportunity, do not lose your peace, but humble yourself profoundly before Me and, with great trust, immerse yourself completely in My mercy. In this way, you gain more than you have lost, because more favor is granted to a humble soul than the soul itself asks for… —Jesus to St. Faustina, Divine Mercy in My Soul, Diary, n. 1361
Writing in this way, as a spiritual journey through Lent, leaves little room for false pretense. There will be times when I find myself weak and down… but it is really not failure if I admit it, (or confess it if I have sinned), resolve to do better, and put my faith and trust in Jesus. He will not only help me get up again, and move on, but can make my failure a victory in the end. And I know that as many times as I fail in my resolve to do good or even sin, that He can do that. So, no fault or sin or missed opportunity for grace can be lost if we put our trust in Jesus and His mercy. Every day we can ask Him to do this. We can even ask Him to somehow repair our failings in life, restore all grace that was lost from our past, and transform us…every single thing can still be regained. I believe this! Let us not miss the opportunity to ask the Lord for this great grace. It honors and glorifies Him when we expect so much of Him and truly treat Him as God!
May the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit be glorified in all places through the Immaculate Virgin Mary.